cries when he is surprised. I wonder why that is? I think maybe at first it is a laugh (I also cry when I laugh really hard) but then when I take a closer look (more like a double take, I always try to look at him closely) his eyes are kind of sad. Maybe he just really appreciates the moment and it takes him to all of the moments he's appreciated in his almost 91 years of life. All I know is, I love that guy. I want to be like him when I grow up.

I'm turning 25 in less than a month. It will throw me into my quarter life crisis. I think during your quarter life crisis you sell all of your things, forget who you are supposed to be and runaway. Because you can afford to. You don't yet have a family (that's mid-life crisis mode) and you are afraid to start a career. Anyway, we'll see what happens.

Fleet Foxes always makes me want to just be in Colorado.

Love,
megan


so long ago...

my aunts and my grandparents. i wasn't born yet. charis was a baby when this picture was taken.

 
this was last year at my grandpa's birthday. i love time warp photos. haha

I'm feeling super weird right now. I can't say that I've ever felt this way. Usually when something like this happens I know exactly what I did to cause it. This time I feel completely innocent for once. I'm confused and sad. My feelings are genuinely hurt. I don't want to try to fix it, because I'm not sure there is anything I could do anyway. I just want it to go away. I want to ignore it. I don't know what the correct thing to do is, but I know that it's not my place. There is nothing to defend here. And when there is nothing to defend, my mom always tells me to let God bring whatever it is to justice and don't try to defend myself. So that's what I will do. I'll just pray and let it go.

Besides the weird events of Friday night, this weekend has been really precious. My dear friend Lauren made her way to Kansas some how. She spent Thanksgiving with me and my awesome adorable family. Then we tripped it up to The City of Oklahoma and had a grand old time with Sheri the Great. I love her so much. I'm glad I've connected with someone so well. We can entertain ourselves so very easily. Saturday Lauren and I somehow made it to Dallas without me having a nervous break down (ha) and spent the night with Mel. I wish I could have spent more time with her. Mel is...perfect. I feel I could learn so much from her. Her smile melts my soul. ::sigh::

This morning I said my goodbyes to Mel and Lauren and made my way back to OKC to spend more time with Sheri and to have lunch with Alicia. Those girls are my sisters. I love them so much. I wish I could be with them for always.

In other words, there was a lot of female bonding time. It was much needed. My mind was a mess, but I made it through. Now that I'm back home, I have a lot of work to do on my heart. :) Wish me luck. Pray for me.

Love,
megan





all ya need is a lauren, a flashlight and a trampoline!